Topic: The demon is devestated.

[greenjeans]

46 years is a long time.  I'm sure there are countless wonderful things that only the 2 of you shared in that time.

Our thoughts are with you.

[BeSeeingYou]

sad to hear this Bill.  You have lost your wife and the kids have lost their mother.  Find support from each other and keep her alive in your memories.

[RodPlunger]

I have no words of solace... I am sorry for your loss.

[demon78]

Thanks guys when I've integrated the experience a little better I'll comment on it, right at the moment it's a bit new.
Bill the demon.

[jtb]

Bill, my heart goes out to you.  I can only imagine what the experience would do to me.  My condolences.
John

[cj750]

Bill:

I'd like to echo what Al/Ichi had to say. Having suddenly and unexpectedly lost my wife of nineteen years in 2010, I can verify its good advice. Hang in there. Not having that special person to share life's little triumphs and tragedies is a big adjustment. I know the sense of loss can be overwhelming, but if your wife was anything like mine, you'll come to realize that she shaped your life so much that she'll always be with you.
People that were close to the two of you will want to help. My initial reaction was to decline, partly because I didn't want to have to deal with other people, but mostly to try and prove, to myself, that I was strong and didn't need anyone else. That was a mistake. Let yourself lean on others a little bit right now. You'll feel better, and so will they. Above all, carry on, and keep her memory alive.
Sincere condolences, and my best wishes at this trying time. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Jay

[KRONUS0100]

been away and just saw this.  Prayers and condolences be with you.

[bill440cars]

   Bill, I am so sorry to hear about your Wife. My sincerest apologies for not checking in here sooner, like I was trying to get back to doing. I am so sorry that you have had to go through that and if you ever need someone to just talk to or whatever, I'm here buddy. Some folks might say that they know how you feel, but I think I come closer to knowing that feeling than most, as you know about my loss in 09 and you all were there  for me. I am so sorry and my Prayers are there guy. 

[demon78]

As an intrim thought, it's just about Xmas and I'm spending it with my daughter and family in the burbs, I'm still not sure about the whole wife gone thing, I'm not sure my mind is capable of processing that she is not here ( I still think that I'll open the door and give her a hand with her luggage in) even though she died in my arms, I've been busy getting medical work done, the Thursday before she died she took me into emerg (my heart rate was 161) and they stopped my heart and restarted it and after a couple hours they said I could go home, great, so home we go and a couple of nights later she's gone, my daughters show up then a couple of nights later my heart goes crazy so we all troop off to emerg and the emerg team starts and stops me again, my daughters talk to the emerg doctor and he sets up a consultation with a specialist in irregular heart rhythms  so down to the burbs I go, then into barrens of Hamilton where doc pronounces that medication are working fine and explain the procedure for cauterizing nerve in heart that is causing problem ( they are going to run a needle where? just a moment here, where? maybe I'll stay on the meds thanks) any how doc notices that my left leg is swollen so off to imaging where a blood clot is discovered so next to emerg where I meet a really high powered doctor who is beautiful who says no needles in the tummy there is a new blood thinner out so take this for 21 days, not only is she intelligent, she is gorgeous and says no Warifin any how my life has been kind of full of late I'm not sure what happens when I get back home but it's one foot in front of the other, at the moment I see no pressing need to live except to make sure grand son remembers that there is still rebels in the world and that his grandmother loved him. I talked to coroner and emergency doctor at home and they say there was piss-all I could have done to help my wife (The reason is that we only would have had a slight chance if Marnie had it happen in emerg) My conclusions are that grab your wife, girl friend
hug her until she can't breathe and lock that in your memory, make her laugh out loud and lock that in your memory, share a glass of bubbly with her and a good meal ( whether it be cheap plonk and sardine on toast) and lock that in your memory, throw every one out of the house and make love to her until she is happy, and lock that into your memory and do it quickly, don't put it off because there are no guarantees and what you've got locked in your memory maybe all you have left to hold back the night.
Bill the demon.

[ofreen]

Thanks for taking the time to put an update on here, Bill.  I always enjoy reading your take on things.  Your conclusions are on the money.  Life is short and we are making a big mistake if we take things for granted.  Good luck with your medical challenges.

[demon78]

Thanks Ofreen I wrote not to whine but to say it's an interesting experience one that most of us will face if we live long enough and a way around it is to hold what's good in our minds as far as I'm concerned some times it's like the quote where the only way you knew it was fierce was the fact that "they tucked their heads into their necks like coming home through a gale" and kept on going, other times a little numbness.
Bill the demon.

[78 k550]

Stay strong Bill, Time does heal if you let it. That depressed state is a hard one to get out of. Don't let it get ya.

Paul

[mrbreeze]

I also lost my woman to a heart attack back in 09'. There isn't or ever will be a day go by that I don't think about her. As already said and you will see.....time will heal the pain you are feeling now. Always remember your times together and don't put any distance between you and your family/friends. I had difficulty around any holiday for a few years without her.......especially my birthday because she just up and passed 3 days after it. Hold your head up high Bill............she wouldn't want you to do anything but that.