Somethings have been bothering me lately.
The reality of moving above and beyond the influence of narcissistic abuse.
It's a thing. Seemingly handed down through the generations like a right of passage.
Needless to say, I'm calling bullsh!t.
Gaslighting, Threats of abandonment or discarding, the "never good enough" treatment. It's getting real fcukin old. The intimidation, rumor milling. Mob-scare tactics. The constant demands turning to monopolization and control.
It's all a hot steaming pattie on a dust bowl prairie.
I already know why it's my fault, I've been informed time and time again that my efforts are unsatisfactory. I'm fully aware that nobody likes me and I'm generally unwelcome pretty much everywhere.
I'm just gonna say how much of a goddamn lie all of that is. It's an introjection of someone else's perverse reality into my psyché. Sad part is, all of it is a projection of their own experience. A self-fulfilling prophecy now weaponized in a desperate attempt to take control of another person.
Being in a "vulnerable" position makes someone an easy target for people with this pathology. Alone, isolated, playing life with a handicap, resource-limited, and just silent enough to look like a sheep..
Guess they never heard that cows aren't as dumb as sheep.