Am I pissed off, yes about 3 years ago I was told that amongst the minor glitches and annoying bits ones body picks up as we get older that I had CANCER, My response was OK maybe that's why I have no ambition or energy, any the Dr very seriously laid it out, it was rare, it was incurable, there was an experimental drug that sometimes helped, Ohh goody, was my response, I hate being on the leading edge of anything, 10 microns back great but on the edge no, so a course of treatment was laid out and I was told that I was to follow it religiously so being the good little trooper I am, away we went, after a bit I learned more about the glitch, it works by changing the shape off the platelets in you blood and when it does, the red cells which carry oxygen and nutrients to various cells don't fit into their usual receptors, no O2, no energy/ambition, there is also at least in me a steady decline in skin colour I get pale, one of the ways around that, is a transfusion it put's properly shaped platelets back in the system and you can function, but it seems to burn up the platelets and then you reach a point where you need another transfusions so a series of not up's but plateaus and then dives, for the first part the dives are shallow and the flat spots are some weeks long. For me I began to get night mares about being in a tight spot and not being able to expand my lungs enough to breathe, so back to the mechanics, the plateau's started to get shorter and the dives steeper and more frequent, and of course reading more about it, eventually more organs become involved and fail so I can look forward to bleeding to death or strangling to death if I don't have a stroke or heart attack. I've probably forgotten to mention other fun bits but that's pretty well it, so I've been left with choices, ride it out, end it, go to a hospice, pray and hope he's listening and not annoyed with an atheist that rails against religion. Now recently I had another infection and wound up feeling like hell with 2 more tubes stuck in me (who has a phobia of wires and tubes stuck in me) and a bunch of people in and out of the house looking after me I've got 5 nurses and 4 personal care workers plus a couple of other ladies that talk to me to keep me from going mad. So guys you tell me about socialized medicine so far all I've had to pay is parking fees at the hospital Zip for Blood, Zip for supplies, Zip for nursing or doctors, Zip for medicines oh wait yes I do pay a dispensing fee for the Meds $6.11.
I know I know jeez what a long winded old bugger so to the Crux, Canada a little while ago passed a law that said it would be legal to have medically assisted dying so I am going to avail myself of the procedure while I still have some ability to make choices.The thought of being hooked up to tubes and wire like some hydroponic turnip is not right. The time for the end is the 1st of January 2020 I've thought about it for a long time and again, if some one on the top end wants to give me #$%* about it that's between them and me, my choice, my responsibility.
It has been a pleasure mostly dealing with you guys and I thank you for that the ones that I piss off sorry, the ones that I don't there's been a few giggles, to the Australian contingent I'd almost think you were brothers Illegitimi non carborundum.
Bill the Demon.
