hey michel...
i'm not one to agree w/ organized religion but i still believe there is a power stronger than me. catholicism was not for me but i have no bones w/ you sticking to it... good for you!
now, here's a suggestion that really got me out of a rut recently...
i get really intent on riding sometimes... the last two years of college (only ended a year ago) i didn't even own a cage and i live in colorado. it was the bus or bike and most of the time (even in the weather) it was the bike. i never got sick of it, but it still became a chore to gear up and yada yada yada. i enjoyed the rides but it was getting mechanical instead of spiritual. until recently... a few of us took out on a ride and no one said where to go... so, i lead everyone off into the farmlands in and around boulder county, but still in the flat lands... it was the straightest stretch of road that i've seen since i left kansas in 1998. we rode 20 miles out... STRAIGHT... and 20 miles back... also straight. w/out all the stresses of anything but a straight stretch of road... i got to be myself... learning to ride again. learning to enjoy being on a bike JUST to be on a bike... not to drag a knee, not to blip the throttle, not even to hang w/ the group... just to ride.
so, my suggestion, is to get back to the basics... what really got you here in the first place. enjoy it, remember how to get there, and go back often.