Topic: At 5:30AM, I july 09, A Rememberance

[bill440cars]

        My Life Took A Dramatic Change A year ago and Left me without my Wife Brenda.
 

                             Please  Remember US today as WE try to move on.    



                                  Thank You All For Being There For Me, Bill 

[Sam Green Racing]

It's hard not to feel the hurt Billy but time is the only healer, thinking of you mate.

Sam.

[traveler]

God bless.

Prayers sent.

~Joe

[Terry in Australia]

Look after yourself Bill, never having had experienced a tragic loss like yours, I couldn't begin to know the sadness you've felt, but I'm in awe of your incredible strength and resilience, and your amazing ability to cope so well mate, I'm proud to know you. Cheers, Terry.  

[demon78]

Aye me too.
Bill the demon.

[DammitDan]

We're here with you, Bill, and like Terry said we're proud of you  

From every description you've provided, Brenda was a truly amazing woman who was lucky to have been loved by such a truly amazing man.

[bill440cars]

It's hard not to feel the hurt Billy but time is the only healer, thinking of you mate.

Sam.

        Sam, I agree with you, It is HARD NOT to feel the Hurt and it IS getting Better. I don't have the the problem as often as I was. It STILL pops up unexpected though (when I DO have the problem).

                        Thank you Sam, Good To Hear From You, Bill

[bill440cars]

God bless.

Prayers sent.

~Joe

   Thanks for THAT Traveler, Everybit helps Man, Bill

[bill440cars]

Look after yourself Bill, never having had experienced a tragic loss like yours, I couldn't begin to know the sadness you've felt, but I'm in awe of your incredible strength and resilience, and your amazing ability to cope so well mate, I'm proud to know you. Cheers, Terry.  

   Thank you for the kind words Terry, hard to think that I am deserving of them though. I'm just trying (hard as it can be, at times) to do what I need to do AND what Brenda would expect me to do. I have to admit that this has been the hardest thing I have EVER had to do, in my entire life! It seemed to take me FOREVER to make myself understand that She was Gone and I'd not see her again, til MY time comes.

                                            Thanks again, Mate.

[bill440cars]

Aye me too.
Bill the demon.

              Thanks Bill, Good to hear from YOU too! You being the' Northern Bill!

                       

[bill440cars]

We're here with you, Bill, and like Terry said we're proud of you  

From every description you've provided, Brenda was a truly amazing woman who was lucky to have been loved by such a truly amazing man.

           Thanks for THAT Dan, Not so sure I'm that much to be proud of, but I sure do appreciate the kind words.

           Thank you, Brenda WAS an truly amazing woman who I am STILL amazed that it was ME who was chosen to share HER Life With HER. She was the BEST! I've never thought of myself as being amazing, much less TRULY amazing. I just try to do what's right and be considerate to others. Have to say, it was DAMN hard to let her go, even though I really had no choice. After July 1st of '09, I find myself thinking about the part of the Marriage vows that say "Til Death Do Us Part" and I am really set back by that because we NEVER REALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT THAT MEANS, til the time comes.

                                Thanks, Bill  

[Spikeybike]

Sending some good vibes your way bill ,, (i could use some of my own medicine)  

 having delt with tragic lose of a close loved one i can tell you that ....one day, the memories no longer fill you with saddness , but with joy .. our lost loved ones live on in our memories .... that's something that can never be taken away from you my friend .. keep your head up brother, thats what she would want  .......and she's not watching you from above.. she's sitting right next to you, wispering in your ear .. and soon you will be calm enough to listen

  i'm not religious at all , but, with one little tear in my eye,  i just said a little prayer for you

[Retro Rocket]

i'm not religious at all

Me either but my thoughts are with you Bill....

Mick

[bill440cars]

Sending some good vibes your way bill ,, (i could use some of my own medicine)  

 having delt with tragic lose of a close loved one i can tell you that ....one day, the memories no longer fill you with saddness , but with joy .. our lost loved ones live on in our memories .... that's something that can never be taken away from you my friend .. keep your head up brother, thats what she would want  .......and she's not watching you from above.. she's sitting right next to you, wispering in your ear .. and soon you will be calm enough to listen

  i'm not religious at all , but, with one little tear in my eye,  i just said a little prayer for you

           You said quite a load there Spikey and I know that there is a lot of truth in that. It IS getting better AND the bad times ARE getting to be less often. But there sure is a huge vacant place in my life.

          I Knew that I Loved Her, though I didn't REALLY realize how much

          I Knew that we were meant to be together, though I never really looked back at all of the things that happened that led to us getting together

         I knew that we were Very Close, I didn't REALLY Know just HOW close we really were

         I Knew we were a Team and that she depended on me for things, but I Never REALLY knew how much I depended on HER!

        Imagine if you could take a person and take away 1/2 of them and them still be alive! THAT'S how I felt, when I lost Brenda!
                         
         I knew that, when she was gone for little bit, I MISSED her and was ready for her to be back home  BUT, I NEVER REALLY KNEW WHAT MISSING HER WOULD BE LIKE WHEN SHE  WASN'T COMING BACK! 


                               Thanks Manny, I DO appreciate your input here,  Bill

[bill440cars]

i'm not religious at all

Me either but my thoughts are with you Bill....

Mick

           Mick, Thank you. No matter whether it is a little or alot, I appreciate ALL input, cause I know it is heartfelt!

[BobbyR]

Bill, cherish the time you had together. The past can never be taken away from you, you have been robbed of the future with Brenda which is a shame. Remember the good times, and become the author of your future without Brenda. Make it a good story.

[bill440cars]

Bill, cherish the time you had together. The past can never be taken away from you, you have been robbed of the future which is a shame. Remember the good times, and become the author of your future.

       Very well put Bobby, Thank you.

        You DO have a way with words.


        BTW, check the thread that I just made on my Dad, liking for input.

[HondanutRider]

Take it one day at a time Bill, and always remember the good times.  The future may not always seem that good, but as BobbyR says, you CAN make it a good story too.  Make it so.

[bill440cars]

Take it one day at a time Bill, and always remember the good times.  The future may not always seem that good, but as BobbyR says, you CAN make it a good story too.  Make it so.

    I know you all are right, but sometimes it REALLY takes a hellofa effort just to keep my head straight, about the everyday things that I need to do. I'm still working on it. It's like a "Work In Progress"!  

[HondanutRider]

Take it one day at a time Bill, and always remember the good times.  The future may not always seem that good, but as BobbyR says, you CAN make it a good story too.  Make it so.

    I know you all are right, but sometimes it REALLY takes a hellofa effort just to keep my head straight, about the everyday things that I need to do. I'm still working on it. It's like a "Work In Progress"!  

You can...you CAN...YOU CAN.  Just do it, Bill.  We're all here pulling for ya.

[sangyo soichiro]

I feel for you Bill.  What a terrible loss.  I hope things get easier.

[bill440cars]

Take it one day at a time Bill, and always remember the good times.  The future may not always seem that good, but as BobbyR says, you CAN make it a good story too.  Make it so.

    I know you all are right, but sometimes it REALLY takes a hellofa effort just to keep my head straight, about the everyday things that I need to do. I'm still working on it. It's like a "Work In Progress"!  

You can...you CAN...YOU CAN.  Just do it, Bill.  We're all here pulling for ya.

         It's ALL of that Pulling for me, that has helped me get this far.

[bill440cars]

I feel for you Bill.  What a terrible loss.  I hope things get easier.

   Thanks guy, they ARE, but just had some setback with this day coming around. Now that this day is almost over with, I will strive to get back to working on dealing with things. I have to back off now and then as this is more than a "Full Time Job"

[bill440cars]

   I want to Thank Those Who have supported me in my times of Need, over the years.

   This Place is Awesome in the way Members "Come Together" for the Brothers & Sisters as THEY have a need for Support and needing their Spirits Raised up.

   If there was a place to nominate a forum for "Forum Of The Month", I wouldn't hesitate to put the SOHC4 in for it!


                                         Thank You Again.

[78 k550]

It is hard to deal with but you need to take care of yourself also.
Hang in there Bill, where here with you.
Take care and stay strong.

Paul