Topic: feeling very down just a rondom sorta rant

[77cafe750]

copied from my facebook its the way i feel as the holiday season approaches and the anniversary of Sarah's passing when it feels like the only thing left that matters has two tires and the heart beat of a four stroke breaths gasoline and spits fire is life even that important when u lose everything and the one person you were meant to spend your life does life itself even matter? i feel lost in this world .....
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Josh Voorhees people just want to play with your emotions and toy with feelings that you have tried so hard to repress over the last almost three years .... is life really worth living when you finally sober up and realize that the meaning to your existence is gone and there is nothing you can do to bring them back and all you are left with is pain so intense you would do anything to make the pain go away
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Josh Voorhees i am tired of hurting and feeling alone in a sea of endless happy faces when everone else has their soulmate and yet i seem to just be a whisper in the wind would my life make a difference to anyone i have met i feel the answer is no

[lowflyingdutchman]

No.

Life doesnt matter. Its pretty much pointless. There is no head in the sky and there is no specific plan for you as a person. Sorry. Nobody knows the answer to your question. Some may try. Some may find solice in things they dont understand and some may want to be romantic about purpose but there is none. From a biological and evolutionary point of view you have served (or are still serving) your purpose and that is the multiplication of your genetic material. nature doesnt care about the emotional factors involved in these mechanics. There.

Other than covering the basics, everything else is stuffing and sugarcoating. Nobody can make sense of your life or give it value but you yourself. Part of the human experience is loss and to think that that is somehow limited to your direct environment is unrealistic. Or in the words of REM; everybody hurts. Constantly. And deeply. Tragedy outweighs the human experience by a factor ten over the positive.

The only thing one could try and aspire to is peacefull acceptance and in it, Happiness. Maybe there are other people in your life who may or may not be as prevalent as Sarah who suffer through your suffering and your singlesidedness is shutting them out undeservedly. Life is everywhere. It's just far more subtle than anything tragic.


wether you feel you deserve it or not, You will be here tomorrow. Its what you do with that that matters. Staying where you are mentally will destroy you. Guaranteed. Move. Get up. Walk. Pack up. Go. Say your goodbyes and hug your folks and go see that fantastic planet you're standing on. If she was half the woman you know she would need you to do just that.

[77cafe750]

interesting

[bill440cars]

   Well, having lost MY wife little over a year ago (1 July, 2009) I can surely offer that I have my Daughter and my Dad depending on ME to take care of them. I can promise you that even though I am older and my Wife Brenda Lived longer than your wife, I can promise you that I had to struggle to get this far and it is STILL an effort to go on. My wife Brenda WAS my Life! In my heart, I KNOW that she'd want (and expect) me to go on with things. As time goes on, it does get a little easier ( I was open to here, about what happened to Brenda and got an INCREDIBLE amount of support from here. Don't give up, as it will not solve anything. I could have easily given up myself. I went for months feeling like Brenda would come through that door just any time (coming back from a visit) or that she would call me up and tell me to come to her parents house down in Little Rock and get her. Yes, and even though it's been a little over a yr, I STILL have occasions when I have problems dealing with her being gone.

       BTW, Anytime you might need to talk, PM me and let it out. It's NOT easy, but you really should take a look at the whole picture of things.


  I hope I have given you something to think about.
 

[77cafe750]

pm sent

[77cafe750]

thanks to those that let me talk some of this out peace crash

[Duke McDukiedook]

I know it can seem tough to see light at the end of the tunnel sometimes but all I can say from my experiences is to take time to appreciate the little things around you.

They are there, the people who you love and care about that love you in return.

The reasons are there, you just have to look a little for them at times, surround yourself with positive thinking people, let some of them become your mentors in life.

Ask them what they do to find happiness, and find your own ways, you can do it, it does take some effort though.

[77cafe750]

i honestly really dont have people around me in a real sense just people on here i tend to stay in the garage my customers call and drop stuff off but i reall yjust do what needs to be done and thats it wait till they need something else fixed or painted work on Sarah's honda and thats it sleep 2-4 hours night usally wake up in a cold sweat .... the people i do know are happily married and always tell me about the rides that they just went on and keep asking me why i ride alone

[ieism]

Look. You're 29 and hurting, but you will get over this. My best friend lost everything he had a few years ago, and he didn't have that much to begin with. But he got over it, if you give it time you will too.

Don't ask what the point of life is, there isn't any. But there are certain things that make life interesting, or enjoyable. You need to figure out what those are for you and try to get as many of those moments for now. Do whatever makes you feel good, as much as you can (exept when drinking is the only thing that makes you feel good now, don't do that too much).

It will be ok. Trust me.

PM me if you need advice

[demon78]

From the aspect of age, my wife and I have discussed it many times and the house would be sold and the survivor would move on, probably after a map of the world or continent had been stapled to the wall and a point had been randomly chosen to move to see and check out, and yes it's running away, but sometimes you need to leave what you had and find something new, as a prelude to making yourself whole again. Is this the definitive cure of course not it is nothing but a thought and perhaps a way to change things. End of sermon.
Bill the demon.

[tramp]

i'm a realist and a survivor
when someone i love goes away i hurt
but then i remember them as they were and move on
i don't think thier world stops and niether does mine
someday we might meet again and remember the old times
till then i keep moving
to much to do and learn before i cash in my chips

[bill440cars]

  It DOES take time, to get past something like that. You just have to keep on going. It WILL be TOUGH, but there will come a time when things won't seem as bad. In MY case, it seemed like I never would get to where I could do anything. I could not get organized to take care of things and I kept hearing friends say to just take my time, do this do that. But, it just seemed so urgent to me, to get to where I could live with myself (without HER). Now, for me, it's been 1yr and 2 months. And, It's been the LONGEST 2 months I have EVER spent! It CAN BE tough to handle, but ya just gotta keep on going.

         Just remember, there are folks here who will be happy to listen, ANYTIME you need to talk, rant, what ever. And I am ONE of those. I've bent some ears in MY time, believe me.

[77cafe750]

thanks for listneing last nite bill it meant alot this place really is the closet to friends and family i have

[bill440cars]

thanks for listneing last nite bill it meant alot this place really is the closet to friends and family i have

  I totally understand AND agree, as this place is alot more to me Also. Funny how even though most all of us have never personally met,we can come together whenever a "Brother" OR "Sister" is in need. I have gotten a lot of support from here myself. ANY TIME, you are in need of a "Listening Ear", I'm available and wil offer what ever I can, in the way of advice or suggestion.

[74cb750]

Most of us have suffered the loss of someone at one time or another.
The people here help those of us afflicted with a sense of loss to get over that hump.
If you need to talk to someone I am also here to listen.
Peace,
michel