Yeah, I'm still having SOME problems off and on, but WAS doing fairly well and kinda getting some things done even. I've had some problems with my emailfor awhile and just didn't really feel like calling the company to go through it with me and get it sorted out. Well, tonight I was messing with the pc and decided to give it one last try. I started having some success, believe it or not. Now2, I had not been able to do anything with this since back around April or so and I had built up over 3,000 emails! So, I was going through them, deleting most all of them, except for certain ones. Then I came across one that I had completely forgotten about. It was where Bob Wessnor had sent me the entire thread that I had started about Brenda's Passing! I can't believe that I started reading ALL those replies ALL OVER AGAIN, but I was and I made it through 1 page when my eyes started up and by the 3rd page I had to quit.
I just have to say that even though I've only met 1 of you all (who is still with the forums), the response that I got from you all AND so quickly AND so continuously, made me feel like I HAD meet ALL of you and had known each of you for years! The comments were made like "I just don't know what to say" and such as that. Well, let ME tell YOU ALL that it is equally as difficult to feel like I have fully expressed just how VERY much the support that I got from here and about the way that you all made me really FEEL the emotions and the regret about Brenda's passing. And the only thing I can think of to do on her Birthday, is to select some flowers, go to her grave and talk to her (remembering how much we meant to each other). But, if I can make it through the 3rd of Oct (her birthday), I will feel like I have accomplished something. One thing that has been helping is a waitress at one of the places I'd been taking my Dad to eat at, has been showing my us some attention and had waited on us when Brenda was with us also. I had been kinda wanting to tell her about what had happened because she seemed so sincere about getting to know her customers and has gone out of her way with us. Well, about a week ago, I saw the opportunity, because she had some slack time, and I told her. I thought we both were going to end up crying.
Well, we get a little extra attention there now and it has been uplifting for me and helps me to look forward to going there and my days usually go by after doing so. Seems like we are building on having a waitress like my Mom and Dad had for those 25yrs.
Anyway, I just had the need to say something to express my feelings, to the best of my ability! Never have been much of a spokesman though.
I wish the BEST to you ALL, Bill
(and, NO, I',m not going anywhere!)
