Topic: MAN, I FEEL GOOD!!!!!!!! WELL, I DID FEEL GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bill440cars]

Bill,

I fully understand. See my tag line. How about this.... you will me your CBX and I'll will you my soon to be NOS 1975 CB900 100hp rebuilt scoot??

Forget the women at our age. They're too old and almost as much trouble as a damned teenage girl!! 

        Hey Jerry, I noticed your "tag line" quite awhile back and though it was GOOD!

 I'd hate to push my trouble (the CBX) off on YOU, Jerry. Instead, I'll put myself out and just hang onto it.    Don't want anyone else to have to DEAL with an old bike like that one. Besides, the CBX deserves someone as mixed up as I am. Not that I wouldn't mind checking out your 100hp Scoot!  

       I wasn't dealing with a woman MY age, I was going younger, which (in turn) was making ME feel Younger as well! While I'm not LOOKING (I wasn't looking THIS time either), I'm NOT going to turn away a seemingly good prospect either! I might be getting UP THERE, but I'm not DEAD either! Seriously, I had given into the fact that I would just pick up, take care of my responsibilities (my Dad, Karla, Joey and my Dad and My own bills and such) and do some things with bikes. I figured that THAT would be IT! But, getting SOME attention from ANOTHER woman, made me realize that I STILL needed THAT! Like I said, I'm NOT going on the search, but, if the situation presents itself, I'm gonna give it a shot. In the meantime, I'll try to take care of things, work with some of my bike projects (the Super Hawk, 650C, etc) and ride the CBX and GPZ every chance I get.    BTW, that gal seems to have concern about things, so I'm giving her some FREE time AND IF there's ENOUGH concern, she MIGHT come around. AND, if she doesn't, I'm out of there (not Calico County, but won't be going FOR HER) completely. 
   

[bill440cars]

       Well, hadn't been in that restaurant in a few days and took my Dad and Karla there for late Breakfast this morning. She (Jana) was there and seated us, all smiles as if nothing had happened. We went and sat down, with her taking their order (she knows what I want for breakfast or any meal , as far as that goes). After taking care of getting our drinks, she made a comment about my not smiling (I used to) and asked why not. I simply said, "Got no reason!" I mean, aw what's the use! I was liking it (not only because it seemed like I was getting someone with similar interests, who I just might have ended up having a really close relationship with and possibly marrying. Yeah, I just got TOO close, it seems) because she was good to us (as a whole) and was learning the things that we usually ordered (especially my Dad, who never changes whats to eat. I've really got mixed feelings on this, because she DID help me emotionally, when I was really down. And I'm grateful for that. I hope I'm not making this sound like some Soap Opera, because I'm not trying to do that. I'm just trying to figure out what the hell I'm going to do. It's been 40years since I was in the position of being single and when you've had that much time with the one you LOVE and LOSE them, It Really messes you up!   

[mick7504]

Bill
It is an extremely difficult time when life’s situation changes.
Losing a loved one or the breakdown of a relationship can be and is a very testing time.
Trying to find a positive in amongst all of this is even more testing.
Being who you are or more to the point, rediscovering who you are after losing a partner can give a feeling of achievement for yourself which is a big plus.
Vulnerability is not uncommon in these types of situations.
Jerry’s words in an earlier post are right in the money.
Just let it happen – there’s no hurry.
Let whoever it may be come to you and give them plenty of space.
As human beings, wanting to be loved and giving love is a natural thing for us all.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with that – it is a good thing and there should be more of it in this world that we live in today.
I’m sure that you know where I’m coming from here.
I believe that being an individual (ie rediscovering oneself) after losing a partner of so many years, widens the opportunity to move forward.
It takes time and it is also self empowering.
Live for the day and keep those memories vivid.
It helped me.
Mick

[Jerry Rxman Griffin aka MuthaF'er]

Bill,

Really sounds like you're turning that corner. Now you can see around the other side. Just remember you mentioned 40 years. I gotta say it ain't at all like it was 40 years ago. Taking a 4 cylinder and turboing it to make 400hp just wouldn't have made sense 40 years ago. We'd cry with embarrassment now if that 4 cylinder pulled up besides our big block brute unsophisticated 440 six pack and made us look like silly old geezers. That just ain't right! You're starting over from scratch and you have a lot of discoveries to make. And there's nothing wrong with discovering something younger if it jumps out at you.    My wife is 16 years younger than I. May have to trade her in on a younger model.   Just kidding. Don't think a guy my age is gonna grab a 30 something even with a bag full of $100 bills. Let Jana be your friend, not girlfriend and flash her that big smile. Friends are good.

Jerry

[bill440cars]

   Mick & Jerry, I know what you all are saying has nothing but truth in it and I am trying to do just that. I felt like I was in 7th Heaven and then, the bottom feel out. So, here I am, once again trying to pick up the pieces. I had really thought that I wouldn't be talking about things like this by now. I DO have to get it together, so I can also get on posting about OTHER things, instead of THIS. I KNOW that I've got to get it together so that I can finish what I've started with my Dad's Situation, take care of HIS business,
take care of my Daughter Karla, Take care of Joey (that I still work with), take care of MY OWN affairs AND YES, even take care of MYSELF! Sure wish that Winter wasn't just around the corner.   I feel that everyday that I can jump on a bike and get out on the road, will help put things behind me as well. I am SO looking forward to alot of that! I AM starting to get other things going. Our dishwasher kicked the bucket last June and the  washer/dryer stack unit has been having problems as well and the van needed tires, BIG TIME. I finally just mad myself sit down and take care of these things. Got the tires taken care of and the appliances are coming Tuesday. That'll help me to be able to concentrate on other things, like getting this house in order. Ha! If Brenda was too walk in here right now, I'd be in HOT Water! Now, I know she's not coming back, but it'd be good to see her, even if she would be fussing! But anyway, there's just SO MUCH to do and like an idiot, I was SO FOCUSED on Jana, that I was neglecting things that I shouldn't have. I KNOW BETTER than that! It just seems SO UNREAL that she's GONE, you know? I hope it doesn't seem like I'm running this into the ground. You ALL have been So supportive and understanding. I'm Gonna go now, but KNOW that you all have helped.