Topic: Seems Like I Have Asked Alot Of You All And You All Have Given Me Support, Now..

[bill440cars]

      As a number of you know, I feel like I'd reached the point where I could get into a relationship with someone now and have made 2 attempts, that One went nowhere and the last one is only able to go as far as close friends (nothing wrong with that and that's where WE are).

     Now, There was another Lady at Bost, who I thought was really Pretty (inside AND out), a really decent Lady as well, who I had met several years ago through Brenda (Brenda thought alot of her too). She is really an AWESOME Woman. She had made some comments at a couple of times when we were talking, that led me to believe that She and I were after the same thing. I mean, I had been married to Brenda for almost 39yrs and don't really know how to act as a single person! I know some are thinking that, to be single again, would be nice (not about how I got that way, but just being single now). Might be for some, but not for me. Today (just about 30minutes ago), she told me that she had told her friend about me and that she would like to see where it would go, with me. The only drawback is, she is getting cancer treatments now (she's had cancer before and beaten it) She wants to get that out of the way before getting too deep in a relationship. She doesn't want to take a chance of building a relationship and then (God forbid) have the cancer do her in. She doesn't want to put me and Karla through that. I told her not to worry about ME, I want to do all I can, to help her anyway I can.

   Okay, the reason I'm here doing this, is to ask for all the Prayer that can be mustered, for Berta's full recovery from this cancer. I KNOW that Prayer WORKS and with the cancer gone, She and I can move on with a serious relationship. She is REALLY SPECIAL and has such Great Qualities. I don't know how she could  be interested in ME, but would be HONORED if I could spend the rest of MY life at her side.  
 
                               Thank you SO much, Bill        

[kslrr]

You got it Bill!  I shall lift Berta and you to the heavens.

[Inigo Montoya]

Count on it bill. A nice guy like you deserves a break!

[droopy]

  you got it from my house bill

[bill440cars]

You got it Bill!  I shall lift Berta and you to the heavens.

Count on it bill. A nice guy like you deserves a break!

you got it from my house bill

           I knew I could count on my SOHC4 Family. This Lady is So gracious and concerned about bringing more pain to me AND my Daughter that she wants to get past this and she's beaten it twice already. I'm Praying that the 3rd time (this time) will be charm and get past it so that WE can move on together. At least NOW I know that I have a chance with someone who is MORE than worth the effort.

           I am DETERMINED to do ALL I can to HELP her to get to the point that she can better enjoy Life! I don't know exactly what kind of cancer it is, all I know is that she has this tumor on the stomach lining and she gets treatments for it and the results from tests, determine how many more treatments she will need. I have to find out more, without depressing her.

[BobbyR]

Count me in Bill.

[bill440cars]

Count me in Bill.

  Thanks Bobby, I never doubted it.

       She's Definitely worth going  for.

[Duke McDukiedook]

Good will and karma sent. 

[bill440cars]

Good will and karma sent. 

   Thanks Man, take ALL I can get, for HER sake!

[HondaLover77]

you got it from my house bill

Ditto here to lol. Cancer can be beaten and I pray it will be beaten. At least you have a compaion or semi companion and right now that's all that counts.

[bill440cars]

you got it from my house bill

Ditto here to lol. Cancer can be beaten and I pray it will be beaten. At least you have a compaion or semi companion and right now that's all that counts.

          I just HAVE to believe it WILL be taken care of and WE will be able to move on.

       Something kind of funny that happened the previous time I was over at her place was: We were sitting there talking and I told her that the first time I saw her, I thought THEN that she was really something
and I was having a time with my word's, as I said "I was...." That's when SHE said, "Attracted to?" and I said, "Well, kinda". That got her and she said "KINDA!" with this look on her face that I knew she was messing with me. I responded with "Well, I WAS Married at the time."
She laughed and said, I know, it doesn't hurt to look. It's doing anything about it, that gets you in trouble. Today, I brought that piece of conversation up again and told her that, to show how slow my mind works at times, a couple of days ago, I realized I should have come back with "I WAS married at the time, but I'm NOT now AND am TOTALLY ATTRACTED to you! Well, she got me again by saying, Yeah, I already KNEW that!" And, with that, she gave me one of those big smiles. Yeah, I'm hooked COMPLETELY! All I need to do is to get her past the cancer and the treatments! I don't understand how ANYBODY could do her wrong!

                 Thanks for listening AND for the Support, Bill      

[bill440cars]

        Man, woke up this morning, feeling like my life ONCE AGAIN, has more of a reason for LIVING! Not that I was thinking of doing myself in or anything of the sort. I was just getting down because of the seemingly lack of someone Special, to share it with. When you've had someone Special to share your life with, for a long time. It's really hard to cope with when you suddenly lose that Special person. NOW, it looks like I'm getting a 2nd chance at THAT kind of Happiness, I just have to help her get past this Cancer. This "Special Lady" is 47yrs old and WAY TOO YOUNG to have to had dealt with cancer several times already. She IS a fighter though and has licked it before. Got to help her do it again! She said that she wanted to get past this cancer, before getting into a relationship because she didn't want Karla and me to have to go through that. Thing is, I'm ALREADY "Hooked" and would feel the pain anyway AND Karla would as well. I respect her feelings, but I personally feel that we should face it together. I guarantee you that I am not going to go looking somewhere else, just because she HAS cancer. I am already committed, but I'll do as she asks, to try not to cause her more stress. This Lady deserves to have more enjoyment of LIFE!

   

[78 k550]

Prayers there way.

Paul

[bill440cars]

Prayers there way.

Paul

         Thanks Paul, I DO appreciate that too! Never can have too many Prayers OR Supporters! I don't know quite what she see in ME, but SHE'S quite the catch! Sure feels GOOD to have someone like HER interested in ME, just wish she didn't have to deal with his cancer thing. I've told her that my background being Dutch, makes me too "Hard Headed" to let some old cancer keep us from getting on with our lives. I am just SO taken by her, it's unbelievable.

[pae]

Hey Bill, count on plenty of support from over here,

Phil

[bill440cars]

Hey Bill, count on plenty of support from over here,

Phil

           Hey Phil, thanks for that, it ALL helps!

                                  Take care, Bill

[75cb550 (kyle)]

Prayers there way.

Paul

         Thanks Paul, I DO appreciate that too! Never can have too many Prayers OR Supporters! I don't know quite what she see in ME, but SHE'S quite the catch! Sure feels GOOD to have someone like HER interested in ME, just wish she didn't have to deal with his cancer thing. I've told her that my background being Dutch, makes me too "Hard Headed" to let some old cancer keep us from getting on with our lives. I am just SO taken by her, it's unbelievable.

don't be so modest, bill. you seem like a good guy.

plus you have a cool bike. chicks love bikes...

seriously, though, i hope everything works out for you guys.

[bill440cars]

Prayers there way.

Paul

         Thanks Paul, I DO appreciate that too! Never can have too many Prayers OR Supporters! I don't know quite what she see in ME, but SHE'S quite the catch! Sure feels GOOD to have someone like HER interested in ME, just wish she didn't have to deal with his cancer thing. I've told her that my background being Dutch, makes me too "Hard Headed" to let some old cancer keep us from getting on with our lives. I am just SO taken by her, it's unbelievable.

don't be so modest, bill. you seem like a good guy.

plus you have a cool bike. chicks love bikes...

seriously, though, i hope everything works out for you guys.

          Thanks Kyle, I do appreciate that too! I try to be like I feel I should be (and hope that it shows). Thanks for the bike compliment too. She's into bikes as well and had an 1100 Cruiser. She's wanting another one and we'll have to see what we can do about that. I'd rather have her behind me on the CBX, but beside me on a bike of her own, would be cool too!    

[tramp]

if she likes old honda's, she's in
my thoughts and prayers are with ya

[bill440cars]

if she likes old honda's, she's in
my thoughts and prayers are with ya

        I don't know about the OLDER Hondas, but she likes my CBX!

       

[HondanutRider]

Bill, our prayers and good thoughts for Berta (and you) are certainly being committed.

I do think you should express your sentiments directly to this lady, and explain that while you respect her wishes and desires, your heart would really be more happy sharing and supporting her every ordeal.  At least - that's what I read are your true feelings.

[bill440cars]

Bill, our prayers and good thoughts for Berta (and you) are certainly being committed.

I do think you should express your sentiments directly to this lady, and explain that while you respect her wishes and desires, your heart would really be more happy sharing and supporting her every ordeal.  At least - that's what I read are your true feelings.

       That is exactly what I am thinking. Because, the fact is, I was already falling DEEPLY for her and WANT to be there to help her through it, comforting her in any way I can. For MY part, it would be shear Torture, NOT to be involved. I mean, it took me a little while to even check out things with her because I just didn't think I was in HER league. I just couldn't see that SHE would EVER be interested in someone like ME. Then, I decided that I might as well check her out as I KNEW she wasn't married and had no boyfriend, from the casual conversations we'd had AND that she was wanting to be in a GOOD relationship. So YEAH, I'm going to get my thoughts together, get with her ASAP and just let her know exactly how I feel and (as you said, make sure she knows that I DO respect her wishes, but I just want her to hear me out (and keep an open mind while doing it). I am TOTALLY AMAZED at how fast I developed these feelings for HER. BUT, I have AND want so much to give her the security (in a relationship) that she hasn't had that much of AND deserves! Besides, IF (and I hope it DOESN'T happen) something DID happen to her, I'd be just as devastated whether we were in a relationship or not! I don't think SHE realizes that. She's got a good head on her shoulders and is very considerate of others, but I need to relate MY feelings to her.

                             I just Pray that she accepts that,   Bill

                                     

[bill440cars]

       Well, I had a talk with her. Told her that I fully respect HER wishes and all.

       Then I told her that, with that in mind, I'd like to tell her about where I was in this. I went on to tell her the WHOLE story about how I didn't even think I was in HER league, at first. Then, I decided to give it a chance and the more we met and talked, the more relaxed I became AND next thing I knew, I had ALL of these feelings built up (that I was afraid to let show, til I was sure she felt the same way). I let her know that whether we were in a relationship or not, the loss of HER, would hurt just as bad. Now, I am realizing that she is pulling back somewhat, til (IF) she gets past this Cancer. At this point, she told me that the doctor wasn't sure that they could shrink the tumor down enough to take care of it. So, she is starting to pull back from friends as well. This is really starting to scare me and I don't know what to do except PRAY NONSTOP! I'm just DEVASTATED  SHE was my reason for picking up and getting on with things! SHE was my inspiration and NOW, I'm getting bad feelings that she's on HER way down!    I just   Bye 

[kghost]

Well as someone thats just about in your position with the whole Cancer thing....

Let me weigh in.

Lifes a one lap race.

Never live your day based on whats gonna happen or could happen. It might but then again it might not.

You ever notice....how after it rains for a week...that first day of Sunshine is just glorious?

Same kind of concept.

Yeah theres pain and suffering along the way...but you'll miss a hell of alot of great things is you just roll over and quit. You might pass that along to your friend.

No one ever diagnosed with a terminal illness just holes up in bed and waits for the day they keel over.

Get on with it.

[Duke McDukiedook]

The power of positive thought can be an amazing thing- and quite infectious.

Go for it Bill, don't look back.